Why am I so goddamn sick?! My throat feels like there are razors in it. My body feels like it got hit by a bus. And the only person who can snuggle the sick outta me is far away. Bummer. Oh and I lost 7 hours of work today. Double bummer. I hate today. Gonna drag my ass out of bed and go get a Popsicle.

Summer so far.

I'm really enjoying my new job. So far I've worked with Kelsie every shift so it makes it even more fun. It's such a change from my first job. That one isn't horrible, I'm just bored with feeding and bathing old people. Making pizza and sandwiches and serving people ice cream is relaxing and almost therapeutic after a day of work with some of my clients. I've been exhausted, but I really need the money, so sleep and relaxation at home is going to have to wait. I think I'm going to hopefully be working more at the creamery. MAS was kind of a jerk to me when I told them I got another job and wasn't interested in working 7 days a week anymore. They said "well that's going to be difficult.." I was like, ummm okay? They took two of my clients away from me because they wouldn't let another worker work with them the one day a week that I asked to be off. Kind of ridiculous. They asked me to work 9 times a week with one client. 7 mornings from 8-9 and then two nights from 5-6. I told them that I would be more than willing to pick up 7 of those shifts, so in total I would be with her 5 days a week. They got pissy and acted like I was the person being unreasonable. I was more than willing to work with them so I could keep my clients, and they acted like it was a problem and that I didn't deserve to have a day a week off. So, next week is my last week working for them during the week. I'll have clients Saturday and Sunday and will be working in the creamery during the week and on Sundays as well.

It's kind of nice that I won't have to work for MAS during the week, but I'm losing my absolute favorite client. She is the sweetest women. She's 99 years old, and all I do is make her breakfast or dinner and go for walks with her. Oh well, hopefully I'll be getting enough hours at the creamery.

In other news, now that I won't be working at MAS during the week, my availibilty has opened up a bit. I'm planning a trip to Haverhill June 7th for a couple days. It will be nice to see Evan. That day is also our 20 month anniversary. Not that we are going to celebrate 20 months, it's just crazy. I can't believe we are going on 2 years. I've never been in a happy relationship for this long. I really have no doubts that we
will be together for a long time. He gave me a beautiful ring in October. Not THE ring, but it's a ring that means something to both of us. I
feel extremely lame and cliche saying it, but I'm about 100% positive that Ev's "the one." I hate that term, and yet I still used it to describe
him.

Okay enough of this shizz. I'm just getting like this because I miss him!

Today

Today was alright. I got another job. This one is at an ice cream/pizza shop. I think it's probably just going to be for the summer, but who knows. I need to figure out when I'm going to work there, so I can figure out when I'm going to work my first job. I think it will be okay because I usually work days, and so far I'm just working nights there. I'm hoping they don't interfere too much, cause I need as many hours as possible. The money situation sucks right now.

Anyways, I took Ollie for a walk tonight. We went around the block, then down the street almost to the river, then back around the block the other way. He was pooped after and came upstairs to get a drink, then fell right to sleep. I hope working two jobs is going to be okay with him. I don't want him to feel neglected! I'm going to be exhausted, but I really need to make sure to walk him a lot.

Tonight was good. I was watching a movie downstairs and then Andy and Val came downstairs and asked if I wanted to play some scrabble card game. It was pretty fun, and it was nice to actually do something instead of just sitting there and watching tv.

I miss Evan. I really want him to come see me, but he seems really against it. I understand he doesn't want to make the trip, but it sucks that he would rather just not drive than come see me. I would be there in a second if I didn't work literally every day of the week. My next day off is June 24th as if right now, so I really can't go down there. Uuugh. Hopefully we get to see each other before that. Being away from each other is really hard. Oh well, we'll figure it out.

Okay I'm done. I had to write this on the stupid iPhone because I no longer have a working computer. JUNK!

I hate saying goodbye

Evan's packing right now. He's leaving in the morning.



I'm so bummed right now. :'(

I love my pup

Seriously, I do. He is the only thing keeping me sane when Evan is away. He's chasing his tail at the end of my bed right now, then stopping and peeking over the covers to me. He's great! I skipped class today so Ollie could be out of the kennel for more time. I was suppose to be in class from 10-12, then go to work from 12:30-1:30, then I had to run to the office to get my paycheck/talk to my boss, THEN go to physical therapy and finally go home. I didn't want Ollie to be all alone for that long, so I didn't go to class. Poor pup is going to be in his kennel for a long time tomorrow. :( I was suppose to work 8-9, but that client cancelled which is nice, but I still work 10-1, then 2-6. Poooooop. I think I'm going to have Andy take him out several times during the day, just so he can pee and stretch his legs a little.

Anyways, Beky, you inspired me to "shop" online without actually buying. (Which is so depressing because I want EVERYTHING and can't get any of it.) So I've been on Forever 21's website, putting about 8273i12 things in my bag, and fantasizing that I can press the "checkout" button. Hmmm, if only...I need to shop at least once before Jamaica, because I have no shorts and about one tank top that I actually enjoy wearing. That's not gonna cut it! My bag has 117 dollars worth of stuff in it..man oh man I wish I could buy it all! Oh well.

Summer is almost here. I wish I was excited about it. Evan's leaving for four months in just over a week. UGH. It's going to be so hard. The first summer SUCKED, last summer sucked and I'm hoping this summer will suck a little less, but it probably won't. I hate being away from him for long periods of time. Maybe I'm just extremely selfish? I probably am. I've dated him for going on 2 years, lived with him for 8 months, and am so used to being with him everyday, and sleeping next to him every night. I'm going to be lonely! We just have to get through this summer, then we are DONE being separated for the summer. He'll move back here at the end of August, we'll go to school for the next 8 months, graduate then pack our bags and move to either NH or MA. I can't wait! I need to find a school down there though. I think I'm going to take a year off, then go back for my masters. When I graduate next year I'll have a Bachelors degree in Clinical Psychology with my MHRTC (Mental Health Rehabilitation Technician Certification) which sounds fancy, but I really can't do much with that, soooo I have to go to grad school at some point. I'm looking forward to that actually. I'm also looking forward to my internship next year. Can't wait to work with actual clients!

Okay this is quite enough I think. Here's my family. :) I love both of those boys a ridiculous amount.