Empty bed and I'm cold

Empty bed for the second night. I guess it's just getting me ready for summer. :(

I miss Evan.

Ollie doesn't normally like to snuggle, but he just jumped on the bed and fell asleep on me. So naturally I had to take a picture. God I love him.

I started my new job. It's going to be interesting to say the least. I work with mostly older people, though I do have one client who is only 39. Basically I do whatever the person wants me to do. Like this weekend, I cleaned an apartment for someone. I also have to help people get dressed, bathe (including sponge baths - EW) and help them eat and stuff. So far I don't really mind it TOO much. I don't really like giving people baths..but I'm already getting used to it. I feel like it's more embarrassing to them, than it is to me. I was suppose to be at work right now, but I got a call saying my client wasn't doing very well, and that he had to go to the hospital, so no work for me right now. I have to work at 4 though. My shifts aren't like regular work shifts. They are only usually 3 hours at a time at most, and three hours with these clients is PLENTY for a day.


I wrote that yesterday before I went to work. Yesterday at work was so shitty. The hardest day by far. This lady was extremely cranky, and took it out on me. I was literally standing in the kitchen, almost in tears because she was just such a bitch to me. Ugh. The first thing she said when she saw me was, "another new girl?!? I'm SICK of them sending me new girls!" Thanks lady, way to make me feel welcomed. She probably has so many new girls all the time because she's such an ass to everyone, and no one wants to work with her. Oh well, I need to stick it out. This job will look really good on my resume, so I need to suck it up and deal with it. It's hard though. I just wish that for once I was in a job that I actually liked.

Anyway. I'm really looking forward to Jamaica. I'm requesting June 24th-July 5th off, so I won't have to go right back to work the second I get back. Can't wait!!

Tomorrow is going to suuuuccckkkk. I have class from 10-12, I have to run to Hudson to work with a client from 1230-230, I have to go back to the bitchy lady from 4-7, and then I have to bring Evan to Portland or something to meet his mom half way. Then I get to drive home and sleeeeeep. I'm going to be ridiculously exhausted. Oh well.

Okay, time for physical therapy.

Saturday Morning

I really wanted to go to Bagel Central for lunch, but they are closed. So, I might convince Evan to go to Paddy Murphey's for dinner. (Even though we really really shouldn't..we're too poor.) Anyway, this is how Evan chose to spend his Saturday morning:

Reversing the vacuum so It blew air into his mouth.


And Again..


And finally, sucking up my hair.


Here's a picture I took of Ollie about 5 seconds ago. Evan was trying to suck him into the vacuum as well. I don't think he liked it.


Right now he's sitting at the bottom of the stairs watching Evan vacuum. He looks like a Hyena.

History class and a little Easter.

Currently, I'm sitting in the history class that earlier today, I contemplated skipping. Oh well, it's only for an hour and 15
minutes. Not bad at all! We have a test in a week. You would think that a multiple choice test in US History I would be easy, but my teacher likes to have about 7 different answers, most of which say "A and B only," "All of the above EXCEPT C," or "None of the above." This drives me crazy. I think I know the answer, than I second guess myself, get it wrong and do terrible on the test. I'm making all A's in my psych classes, and this stupid Gen. Ed. class is bring my GPA down. Oh well.

Anyway, Easter was a good time. Evan and I headed out to Dixmont around 4 on Saturday. When we got there, 3 of my favorite people (Kalen, Wylie and Nora) were out in my field flying a kite.

Here's Tara flying the kite with Kalen.


They are so ridiculously cute. I've babysat for some cute kids, but these one's are by far my favorite. I'm pretty lucky to have such a great niece and nephews. That night, we ordered a ridiculous amount of sushi, and I stuffed my stomach full of shrimp rolls, cucumber rolls, sweet potato rolls, and agedashi tofu. YUM. I love when my Mom suggest we order sushi. It's probably one of my favorite meals, and I can eat SO MUCH of it without getting full. I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing...

Easter morning was nice. I like watching the little kids open their baskets, and I enjoyed opening mine! This was the last year that I get one. :( My mom was nice enough to put a gas card and a Hannaford gift card in my basket. Gonna grocery shop tonight! We went to my Mom's friends barn where she had 7 new adorable baby lambs that we got to feed with a bottle! They were so cute, and would suck on your fingers if you put them near their mouth.



Here's a picture of a cute baby lamb sucking on Evan's finger!



There was also a cow there that pooped twice and peed twice in the ten minutes we were standing there next to it. After that, we went back to my house and ate a big meal of pork tenderloin, potatoes, salad, asparagus, and bread. It was delicious, and I was too full to eat any of the strawberry-rhubarb pie or brownie sundaes that were for dessert.

Ollie got to run off the leash a few times, which was nice. Him, Barkley and Sage when crazy and ran around the field, all the way to the pond where they all jumped in and got soaking wet and smelly. Ollie loved it! (Besides the water..I don't think he's much of a water dog.)

Yesterday, it was beautiful out. Evan and I decided to bring Ollie to the water front and have a picnic. It was windy, but I had a lot of fun. We made egg salad sandwiches, packed crackers, and applesauce and on the way we picked up some iced tea and Doritos. We left shortly after we finished eating because the wind picked up and it started to cloud over.



Hmm, oh yeah, my knee is doing well. Real sore after I go to physical therapy, but it's doing really well. I'm not suppose to be off crutches for another 2 weeks, but when I'm at home I don't use them much. I still wear my brace and I'm real careful though, but I can already feel that by just walking without crutches is starting to strengthen my leg. I can't wait until I get the okay for no more crutches and no more brace! It will be great. (Though the handicap parking decal is pretty sweet, too.)

All in all, my life is going in the right direction. I'm happy, Evan's happy, and I'm pretty sure Ollie is happy as well. We have 6 more weeks of school which is nice, but I'm not looking forward to when it's over. That means Evan leaves me for 4 months. 4 months without him is so hard. It's hard to get used to an empty bed. It sucks not having anyone to talk to before bed every night, and right when I wake up. Oh well, at least for most of the summer I'll have Ollie. I know I'm going to cave and let him sleep out of the kennel. Even though I know he won't snuggle with me! He hates sleeping on the bed. He gets too hot.

Okay this is quite enough I think.

Home finally.

I don't have any new pictures...BUT I do have an update.

Finally out of the hospital. YES. I was there for 9 days which sucked a lot. I found out I had C. Difficile, which is basically a fancy name for "puking and shitting ALL DAY LONG." I couldn't keep anything down, so I had to be in there for a few extra days with an IV in. But, now I'm home and it's great. I started physical therapy yesterday, so that was nice. It's going to be hard, but it's alright. My stitches came out today AND I got a handicap decal for my car...which is going to be sweet. HAHAHA I'm an old lady. Ollie grew a lot since I left for surgery. He's huge now. He's also doing really well with not jumping on me. He's getting good about jumping up on only Evan's side of the bed too. The other day when I got home from the hospital, Evan went up to get Ollie and I heard him yelling at Ollie. I figured he was peeing on Evan or something, but it turned out that Ollie had somehow pulled his harness into his kennel, and chewed it in half. Evan had to destroy it even more, and turn it into a collar for him. He kept pulling out of it though, so a trip to petco was made. I wasn't there, but I guess Evan put the new harness on Ollie, and brought a new toy and the tag up to the counter to be paid for. The women at the register thought the tag was trash, so she just threw it away!! Free harness!!! OH! The day I got home from the hospital, my mom took Evan and I grocery shopping. It was awesome. Normally, we spend about 70 dollars every couple of weeks on food. My mom just took us down every isle and asked us if we wanted anything. I grabbed a frozen pizza and she was like "you only want one?! Have another one" and she put another in the cart. It was ridiculous. She ended up buying us like 230 dollars worth of groceries...we are good for a long time, which is really awesome. I was soooo thankful that she took us! She also filled the gas tank for us! I think she felt bad since I'd been sick and been in the hospital for so long.

Hmm anyway, I think that's it. I have to pee, and it takes me about 5 minutes to get down the stairs, so I better go now.

Heated blanket, Monday, Jamaica, Ollie. Jumbled thoughts.

I love the heated blanket Evan's mom bought for us. I find myself laying under it an awful lot...like right now. I go into surgery on Monday morning. The surgery is at 8:30am, but they are going to call me today and let me know what time I need to be there. I feel like it's 6:30 or something. I'm really not looking forward to it. The fact that I have to basically get three surgeries in one day is real shitty. If it was just the ACL surgery it would be fine, because I've already gone through that once, and I know I can do it again. It hurts A LOT, but I know I can do it. But now I have this other surgery to go through..I don't even remember what it's called. Basically they are going to be cutting a piece of my tibia out and moving it over so my knee cap is in line with the rest of my leg. Sounds simple enough, but it's really going to suck. With an ACL surgery, they encourage you to put as much weight as possible on your leg after the surgery so it can start being strengthened. With this surgery, I'm not allowed to put more than 25% of my weight on my leg for 6 weeks because since they cut bone out of my tibia, it's fragile and can break my leg. Awesome. I just really hope this doesn't slow down my recovery. My doctor said the recovery time is about the same, and if I work real hard in physical therapy I should be okay. I just want to be okay for Jamaica. I'm looking forward to going so much. I know I won't be completely recovered, but I'm pretty positive I'll be fine for walking and such. I don't think I can run or anything for like 6 months, but who knows. I think that once the first six weeks are over, and I can walk without crutches, my recovery and progress will be much better. I just have to make sure I don't push myself too hard and screw something up in the process. djskfhskjdhfskjdhf ugh. I just keep thinking about Jamaica. Basically, Jamaica is going to be my reward to myself after my surgery. If I do really well in PT and try my absolute hardest, I get to go to Jamaica with Evan and his family. If I don't do well and am lazy about my rehab, then my knee is screwed for life and I go to Jamaica and don't get to do half the stuff I want to do. Oh and speaking of Evan's family. They are absolutely great. I feel really welcomed at their house and love going there and visiting with Evan. I'm really lucky that they are letting me tag along to Negril this summer!!! I keep looking at pictures of the Blue Cave Castle. :)

Anywho, in other news....Ollie is losing teeth real fast!! His mouth was all bloody yesterday, and I looked in it and he had a tooth coming in. It was gross. He's also a shark right now, because there are some teeth that are coming in right next to his baby teeth, so he has two rows of teeth. He's getting SO HUGE. I tried picking him up today and it was really hard. He weighs so much right now, and I could barely walk while holding him. I'm not going to be able to pick him up at all soon. :( Oh well, maybe that means he will be big enough for me to ride??

He loves to eat his tail..

I look goofy...but you can kind of see how big he is!

He also likes to lay on our pillows.

Sleeping on the floor with Dad.

Surprised? Astounded? Strange? Yes.